Story Submission – Zoe, Age 19
So in an effort to start anew, as the new year often suggests we do, I’d like to point out some things as a way to apologise to those I may have once offended or hurt.
A few years back I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety. Unfortunately, it’s not uncommon these days in people but acknowledging that others share the same fate does not necessarily make it easier to deal with yourself. Even though I was officially diagnosed back in 2009, I’ve been dealing with it for what feels like a lot longer. The struggles are never easy and I’ve scars to prove it but each day in my opinion is a success.
Recently I’ve been significantly closed to everyone because I didn’t feel I could handle social contact. Working a lot (even though I work in retail) sometimes helped because it kept my mind off it. However, as I begin to work less and get into my University study, I know I need to confront this temporary social phobia caused by my depression and anxiety.
To all those people I have frustrated, annoyed or blatantly excluded from my life at some point, I’m really sorry. I hope you understand that the daily struggles I go through (be it simply getting out of bed and staying okay until it’s time to attempt sleep again) are really difficult for me and if I don’t answer a message from you, it’s not because I’m angry or don’t want to be around you. It’s just that I find it too hard and I don’t want you to see me at my lowest points. You don’t deserve it and it’s humiliating for me. To those who have stuck with me, thank you so much. You really are the best.
Thanks for reading this long-ass post if you did. Have a great day or night, depending on where you are. Much love – <3
