Story Submission by Kimmie, Age 18
I used to wake up every morning and wonder if there was any point in getting out of bed and starting the day I had ahead of me. I avoided social situations and had self-image issues. I was scared of everything and didn’t want to live my life anymore. I lived with these feelings for a long time, before I realised how wrong something was. It was the same day I wanted it all to end; no more pain.
I knew I needed help, but I didn’t want to talk to anybody because I thought they wouldn’t understand how I was feeling. I felt alone. I felt as though there was a big wall between myself and any possibility of hope or a future. I didn’t have many friends as it was, let alone carrying the label of “mental nutcase”. After the trauma and the scars, I finally looked for help and was diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression. I visited a psychologist, but in all honesty I left feeling worse than I did before I arrived.
I still have my days; anyone who knows me can tell you that. It is hard struggling every day, but I know how to cope with my problems now by surrounding myself with people who love and support me.
The most important thing, however, is that there is always hope.
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