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Story Submission by Angus, Age 20
I guess my story begins from when I was quite young, somewhere along the lines of 6 or so.
Basically my parents split up from when I was a very young age. I accepted that pretty quick but then my mum started seeing someone else. It was a couple of years down the track that I knew that I knew my life wouldn’t be the same.
Domestic violence has played a big part over the years of my being and what felt always to be my fault even though I’ve been told it’s not. I’ve woken up to screams, crying and yelling and that’s something that I will never be able to forget. I’ve dedicated myself to doing what I love and making sure that my hands never find themselves in a forceful motion towards women and I also never raise my voice at my girlfriend.
At my current age of 20, life isn’t that great still as I’m suffering from severe anxiety, especially when someone raises their voice or I’ve seemed to inconvenienced someone. What seems to calm me down best is the rumble of an engine and driving by myself with music blaring.
I currently drive a Mitsubishi FTO GPX: it’s an amazing car and so far it’s helped me hold tight.
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